I know it’s been a minute since I’ve blogged, but thank you guys for sticking around! Sometimes you have to pull back for a moment to get your mind and your spirit back in check and then you can come back stronger than ever….I’m BACK! So here we go!
While on my mini hiatus I dealt with a serious battle of loneliness. This wasn’t that single woman with no kids type of loneliness. This was that I miss my parents and I’m the only child type of loneliness. As many of you already know, I lost both of my parents 16 months apart when I was 17 and 19. My mother was a single parent and I grew up as an only child. I have literally been on my own since I was 19 years old. I’ve been running a household, paying bills, and handling business for myself for a long time now. I’m not telling you this for pity purposes, this is simply to give you a little background history.
Although my parents are not physically with me anymore, God has blessed me with a second to none support system ranging from family, to friends, to church family, to teachers/professors, to mentors, and so much more! There has never been a time when I needed these people and they weren’t there. But even with all of these amazing people in my life, I occasionally feel extremely lonely and over the past few months this feeling has been so heavy that it almost completely overtook me. I’ve had one too many sleepless nights. I’ve shed one too many tears. I’ve tossed and turned and face too much turmoil over this feeling. I prayed, I fasted, but I just couldn’t seem to shake it.
So I finally talked to my Pastor about what was really going on with me. I told her that I felt lonely and uncovered without my parents, especially my mother. I told her that I felt like no one understood what I was going through. After letting me vent and get it all out, she explained to me that I was putting too much energy into the FACTS while ignoring the TRUTH. As the conversation continued, she led me to understand that the fact of the matter was that my parents were no longer here and I am an only child, and according to the world’s standard, I am alone. However, the truth of the matter is that although I am alone, I’m never lonely.
First and foremost, God promised me that He would never leave me nor forsake me. Secondly, God has surrounded me with people who I know without a shadow of a doubt love me and care deeply for me and would do anything in their power to help me. It is the tactic of the enemy to try to get me to focus on the fact and not the truth. How many times has he done that to you? Don’t be surprised or caught off guard by it, that’s just his low down dirty way. It is up to us as believers to shut the enemy down when he tries to bring that mess to us.
So now that I’ve reset my thoughts on the truth, I’m back and ready to keep fighting. I’m ready to keep making a liar out of the devil. I’m prepared to keep stomping in victory. Are you with me?